Saturday
05-01-10
09:42
KNL
Log 01
Woke up at brother love's pad. It's the second time that I spent the night there. The first one was out of pure drunkenness. [I got so drunk i still don't remember how I got inside his house, last thing I could recall was puking my eyes out at the corner of the street.] The last one was because of escape, I slept to get away from one reality that just slapped me in the face. [Emo.]
I walked to Mcdo to get eat breakfast. It was already 9 in the morning. The sun was already being a bitch to my eyes. It burns like fucking hell. One of the reasons why I love vampires so much is the fact that, like them, I hate the strain the sun gives to my eyes from 8am to 5pm. I got there and found out they were still serving breakfast meals [I was actually looking for chicken fillet.] and that it was already packed with so much fucking people [I don't like crowded areas that much. Heck, I don't like people that much. Too many people just burns my eyes the same way the sun does.] Boohoo. And I was planning to write this down under the label of "solitary breakfasts at Mcdo". Too bad. I decided to go back to KNL to write this on my laptop. The urge to write was like some vampiric thirst for blahd.
So, anyway, last night, a confidant told me that I had no chance with - hm, how should I call her? - ah, the "Muse of Azluth". So, I decided to escape that reality by sleeping. Haha! Woke up and still thought about those words. [Yeah, sleep only gives one a few hours of escape. Well, for the sleeper, whose sense of time is fucked up when sleeping, it could only last an illusory 30 minutes.] I thought about the color green. Green stands for Determination. How the hell can I call myself a man without even being determined? Then, I thought about the previous times I was determined over girls and I always ended up, well, apparently, not being with the girl. Then again, more thinking transpires [Yeah, when I think, it's a fucking train of thoughts] I remembered the lines I grew to love: is the juice worth the squeeze or is the squeeze worth the juice? The juice is definitely worth the squeeze! Will keep that in mind though, 'coz one of the famous words of Jubei was "a soldier knows when he is fighting a losing battle and decides to fight another battle where he wins instead..." Not the exact verbatim, I actually merged it with one of my dad's lines: never choose a lose-lose situation, you could choose a win-lose situation, but, if you're really smart, you would choose a win-win situation. Solution: go for the kill without getting killed!
GREEN WITH DETERMINATION TO ACHIEVE MY GOALS, BABY!
Walking home from Mcdo, I was quickly reminded of one of the characters I always wanted to write down - The Prophet. Let me explain what The Prophet is: he has infinite memory and is immortal. Because of those skills, he has experienced a load of shit and has read every book on mathematics. With the knowledge of forms [numbers and equations] and having witnessed physical events, he can predict the future. Thing is, he has little time to predict everything as he also observes [gathers information] at the moment of prediction, probably to know if his previous predictions are true. Also, he only observes up to what his senses can reach. He doesn't have the power of sensing the whole world and beyond it. He is actually the epitome of the chaos theory that i love so much. From his flaw came the idea of another immortal who could see the whole universe at one point. [Greatly inspired by “The Aleph” of Jorge Luis Borges.] That second immortal is “The Eye of God".
Anyway, The Prophet has an Emo side in him. [I'm Emo, go figure.] He falls in love with countless women [He's immortal, duh.] at the same time, he knows that every woman he falls in love with will find another man to love more. A second character asks him why he doesn't do anything to make a woman love him most when he knows all the patterns and he can manipulate them to his advantage. He replies by once by saying that he doesn't want to be hurt by their deaths as he is immortal and the women aren't. And in a second instance, he says that there are things which are out of his control, for example, an unknown variable in the great pattern of things which might spark the instance where the woman would fall out of love with him - he doesn't have the power to see the whole universe at one glance. Also, he, being immortal, already tried manipulating the pattern. At one point, he manipulated the pattern more than a hundred times just to make the woman stay. It was already growing tedious, he said. At another time, the second character asks him why he bothers to fall in love with a woman he knows he wont end up with and he answers by saying that's the way the patterns have molded him, incapable of not falling for an "epitome of beauty."
Will write both characters - The Prophet and The Eye of God [Though I still don't know what drama I could put in the Eye of God's life and I have the faintest idea as tho what their back stories are. Will work on them, don't worry.] - into my collection. Not now, I suppose, as I still plan to go to the "Muse of Azluth". Oh, and Jason Ocampo asked me to meet up with him at Megamall by 3 pm. Free comic books, he told me. Yeah, I'm also a comic book addict. Well, scratch that one, I'm not so much a comic book addict, but, hey, free stuff is good stuff. I still think that Spawn is the best comic book character.
BTW, check out http://thecheawingnemix.tumblr.com/ kwela!
*listening to mash up of "growing old with you" and "here, there, and everywhere" by *cough* me *cough**
On a side note, I'm addicted to video games. Just now, I realized that 4 years ago, Valkyrie Profile 2 came out. Valkyrie Profile is one of the best games in the world! Like Castlevania, and Devil May Cry, and Megaman, and Crash Bandicoot, and Final Fantasy, and [I could go on, but, typing too much too fast hurts my finger joints...] Au revoir!
